Food is great! I hate food! This is the internal battle that I’ve been having with food since I was a kid. It really all started with a consciousness that I had never had about eating healthy, then my family jumped off at “Seventh Day Adventism” during their religious tour. Though, I wasn’t cool with giving up my earrings, pants and Saturday cartoons, I was not that bothered by not ever having to eat a disgusting ham steak ever again. We gave up pork and this made me happy because I never really ate it without feeling disgusting and guilty afterwards, sorry guys.
Today I am on a juice fast and I continue to think about why I am constantly on a rollercoaster with this, when I do these things for my health, allegedly. I can’t deny that the weight loss sometimes drives me and pulls me through when that Spinach, Kale and Chard juice is looking me right in the eye. I mean who are we kidding, most women are constantly being reminded of how they should look more times over than how they should feel. So a good “Juice Fast” is a great way to diet under the pretenses that you are really fighting for good health. COME ON, let’s be real with each other.
It sucks that what is being done to our food, environment and selves can be deadly in the name of profit, I used to enjoy a FRENCH FRY! I say all of this to say my friends, that I will be juicing on and off for the next two years and I am not happy about it. I want to eat a burger, but I honestly can’t, because meat makes me extremely sick (it’s pretty unfair). Kale chips suck ass and green juice does NOT taste good to me, but crab legs are amazingly delicious, and sometimes I can’t cope! Too much?
Battling with self destructive eating disorders are pretty common and unfortunately many of us do not know that we are in that battle. It has a lot to do with constant images of these adolescent boy-body built women they continue to push on us as the standard of beauty. I can only speak on it from where I stand, but I honestly remember admiring my grandmother and being comfortable with growing into an old lady and being awesome. Now, all I am reminded of is how I need to look and stay young forever. Shit, that’s a whole lot of work for a goal that can never be accomplished.
I’m ranting because I’m hungry, I want to go to PF Chang’s, my favorite Cuban restaurant and McDonald’s all at once. These are all of the things that I crave when I feel deprived, that I don’t normally eat, but this damn Kale can really get to you.
In closing, keep your head up (especially my ladies), trust me, you are beautiful just the way you are. Doing anything to improve your health is a great thing, it’s OK to be honest about dropping a few pounds being a motivator. Just don’t get carried away and become a slave to this like I have for years! It’s not worth it, life is worth living and you honestly deserve that french fry every once in a while!